I've been on disability for a little over a month now. I'm grateful I've been given the help financially, it's nice. However I feel like I'm not getting any better at all. I don't know what I was really expecting when I initially applied. I thought therapy would have been a better help, but apparently it's not doing anything and is a waste of time. Maybe it's time to look for help somewhere else. My thoughts have become so angry as of late, as if there is no more satisfaction in life. At least for what I'm doing which isn't much. I'm irritated all the time for reasons I can't figure out. I have to start doing something different. I want to move, but then again I don't know if it's the right decision. Not that I would know because I seem incapable of making decisions in my head and on my own. So really indecision has become my decision for the past three years almost and it's pissing me off to no end. What would you do if you sat around for 2-3 years pondering what career choice to make, and never making one because you don't know. You'd lose your mind at the insanity. I feel like I'm numb and can't do much but drink coffee and chain smoke. Life better change soon for the better, I'm tired of this shit.
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AuthorI was diagnosed bipolar 1 in March of 2005. It's been a challenge to say the least to live with this disorder everyday. There has been some major ups as well as downs. It's just something I have to deal with. Everyone has their own problems and struggles to sort out and this is just one of mine. I'm not asking for anybody to feel sorry for me. I just want to educate those who don't know much about it, and if it helps out somebody along the way even better. Archives
May 2017
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