internet if you do a search on bipolar. I'm a deep thinker and I like to
reasearch and learn all I can. However, you have to be able to discern for
yourself what is real and what isn't. There are web pages on the internet
suggesting that people with bipolar disorder have been "spiritually awakened."
It is commom in mental illness to have extreme religious thoughts and
revelations. People that are not even religious have them. As tempting as it
is, and as much as I would like to believe that people with mental illness have
a special connection with God; I just think we should leave that one up to God.
Yes, I believe I was extremely delusional and paranoid. However, I still
believe it was more than that. My faith in God has always been a part of me
whether I'm manic or not. I believe my faith is just as much a part of me when
I'm manic, but my life is in so much chaos with all the intense emotions and
sensations that I trust in Him more. So I don't think we're more spiritually
awake than others; I personally think though that God can use a manic episode
for his purposes in the lives of others, if you have faith in God already
there's nothing impossible.